Just got back from the bars and I am being honest I am losing my mind. I am in process of trying to change myself because I was told I have to be more positive and wear a mask and pretend that I don’t care that I am lonely and depressed. I literally have almost everything I could want in life but a relationship and I am losing my mind. I thought first it was my race and then I see a bunch of black dudes with other women of every race around me. And then I think it’s my height and then I see a few shorts dude with women. In my head I don’t get it and then people say let God handle it but then I see guys on dating apps swipe on me and ITS ONLY GUYS and the bots. Like what in the world am I doing wrong or am I cursed by some damn witch? like I don’t know how much I can pretend when it’s annoying me seeing two people make out in front of me and then if i try and do something someone says i am trying too hard when all the girls i know end up not being really friends and the ones i like just not giving me the chance in the universe. it makes me feel like i want to die almost
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The honest truth is that you’re self-deprecating, negative, and it reeks off of you.
All of your posts are complaining about why you’re not good enough or attractive when in reality you’re not ugly by any means.
Being or not being in a relationship should not be this much of a detriment to your mental health. You have a lot of introspection to do and it’s not related to physical appearance.
Why not go for the men swiping right on you?