Help some sad asian nerd (18M) get a gf

Tbh the title is a bit misleading but I desperately need help lmao; The post encompasses much more than just how or whether to get a gf or not, rather more on life in general since I had been pretty depressed and lonely after highschool ended about 2 weeks ago or so.

Abit of background of me:
180cm+, skinny guy not visibly muscular, no sports but great at swimming and track (regular training for years), Ib nerd GPA 4.0 students 1550 SAT whatever u get the idea, pretty good gamer (top rank in a month or so in pretty much any competitive shooters: pred/masters in apex, radiant/imm3 in valorant etc), anime lover (cringe), into programming and going to UBC’s compsci program next year, pretends to be confident in public but is a little insecure clown on the inside (hard time talking to complete strangers outside of work/school), constantly anxious and in fear of university and future in general.

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I spend alot of time studying and maintaining a decent grade to get into a decent uni. Overall my HS academics career was a bit of a let down all together (41 IB predicted score) since iv got high expectations but am too lazy to reach that full potential and I always hate myself for it. This messes alot with my confidence thing and together with being skin on bones I have pretty low self esteem, often doubting if im deserving of being loved.

Iv got many friends but absolutely no close friends. Before I immigrated to Canada, back in my homeland I got close friends but then since i moved here during grade 6 I pretty much had no close connections with anyone. This is fine during school years since my goal is to study and whatever shared activities/interests I had with my friends were good enough to keep us somewhat connected; However, now that school is over, poof and half of them instantly disintegrated into think air and the other half are mostly online friends who I cant really connect to on a more personal level.

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For about 3 weeks now all iv done is sleep a shit ton, workout, learn driving and gaming. Its not what I had expected at all being finally free from the Hell of IB and feel more depressed by the day. I look back and feel like i didnt do shit in HS besides studying and working while other ppl (probably) had so many interesting experiences. I feel alone and got no one to talk to or hang out with, because the friends I still have are either too attached to their house or too poor/lazy to go on trips or parks etc with me. And alot of those mfs are not even from my school so outside of online I havent seen them in years.

***Which FINALLY leads to the title of the post,*** getting a gf. I dont think its a good or even at all a solution to my boredom and growing anxiety, but unless u got a better plan then its the only thing I can think of. Iv never had a gf, and had only been in a few IRL friendship with a girl before. Yeah yeah laugh it up if u want. Naturally, a loser of this caliber would like anime and its questionable counterpart; honestly its like the chicken and the egg, which comes first? Liking anime thus never feeling the touch of a woman or vise versa? Jokes aside Im a decently attractive guy (according to my co worker) thats hardworking and upright by most ppls standards. Iv asked a couple girls out that I was familiar with and all failed. Most of the time it ended up with us playing Minecraft bedwars instead, which, to be fair, I enjoyed alot.

But now that school is over and I suddenly pretty much have no social presence, I feel like its going to be near impossible to get to know ppl, let alone get a gf. So yeah if u got any thoughts please let me know man. It doesnt even need to be related to the title of the post, because I myself am unsure of whether to get a gf or not because I have ZERO experience with this kind of shit and am only in it to find a close friend of sorts, someone I can talk to and hangout with ig. I mean boobies are nice too.