Boyfriend of 9 Years Cheated On Me for the Last 2 Years

Hi,

I think I just need to vent and tips?

So, on Tuesday night I found out that my boyfriend of 9 years, thought I was going to marry him someday, his mother calls me her daughter-in-law even, has been cheating on me for the last 2 years with some girl in Mexico that he thought he had a kid with. He swears up and down he took a second DNA test , bought one in the US (he’s saying that the first DNA test he took in Mexico came back positive according to his side chick) and he took it down there and it came back negative. Since it came back negative he broke it off with this girl and stopped sending her money for the kid and he says that’s when she threatened to contact me. He’s saying he broke it off in May and that he was waiting to tell me, but I don’t know if I believe him.

He’s been playing fucking house with this girl and her fucking daughter (and she has a son) for 2 fucking years of our 9 year fucking relationship and I never saw it coming. I didn’t even know he had it in him to betray me like this, and when we first got together I had a lot of trust issues because I had been cheated on before and it was bad and he knew this, but he helped me to get over a lot of it and I trusted him blindly and now look at where I’m at.

And the only reason I found out is because the girl created a fake account and tried to add me on Facebook and then she started messaging me and sending me pictures of him and her and her kids all together. When I asked him who this was and sent him one of the pictures she sent me he texted back “we need to talk”. My stomach sank because I knew then that yes, there was truth to this.

I’m devastated, shocked, I’ve been crying since Tuesday night. He says he’s sorry and it didn’t mean anything (how fuckin cliché) and I’m just…broken.

I just want to know if anyone who has been in maybe a similar situation can give me any tips on how to get my life back on track? We were living together, and I mean fuck we even filed out taxes together this year so he blindsided me 100% I thought this was going to be my husband one day. I just feel lost and everyday I wake up I think and hope and pray it won’t hurt as bad the next day, but everyday it hurts worse, and I’m still crying. He’s staying with his family right now, and I told him I need time to think, but yeah this is getting worse everyday. I’m just upset and angrier everyday. I feel like my life has been ruined, and I can’t believe he did this to me after everything I’ve done for him; I helped him get through school, I would get up early with him for work to make him coffee and his lunch. I was practically his wife for the last 9 years, did everything like a wife and maybe I was stupid for that, but I thought we were trying to build a life together because on top of doing wifely duties I’ve also been going to school and working my ass off and I’m like super close to being done with school. And we’re integrated into each other’s families, and they’re scolding him for what he’s done to me, but yeah I just feel like absolute shit and I’m wondering what I’ve done to deserve this. He says I shouldn’t blame myself, but it’s hard not to when it happens like this.

Yeah. This sucks. Any tips are appreciated.

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tldr: just found out my boyfriend of 9 years cheated on me for the last 2 years with some girl he thought he had a kid with and he’s been living a double life.