31F and I’ve been single for so many years. I got my heart utterly shattered last year and im trying hard to find someone but it’s all so exhausting because I’m doing things I don’t want to do just to get out in the open to expose myself to people.
Im going to events, walks, hikes, picnics, barcades, trivia, and all of these social things while ALSO having to look around the whole time for guys I might be interested in. it’s exhausting. all I want to do is go home after work, cook dinner, watch a show, play my games and do my usual stuff without having to constantly look for events and gatherings in town. it’s so exhausting… but theres no other way for me to meet guys…
not to mention that while I’ve been doing this the last few weeks that I’ve actively been making an effort to expose myself, I only have seen one decently interesting guy and I embarrassed myself because as he was leaving after our little chat, I called after him before he left and I ran up to him and asked if he was single and he said no. I felt like crying.