Hello!
For context, I am a 28 year old single F. Up to my 20s I was a fun person, I had a lot of friends and people wanted to hang out with me without me trying to make them like me.
Then life started becoming one shit storm after another (death, work, family stuff and so on) and I kinda lost my spark in the meantime. Life got too serious and so did I.
I have a thousand worries on my mind and that makes me unable to relax and have fun. My favorite activity became watching tv shows while I do chores because it requires no effort from my side.
I have some friends but when we go out we talk about life. We don't have fun in silly ways. Even a weird thing started happening to me, I am physically unable to genuinely laugh at something, even it is funny to me. I always have to force a smile and can't remember the last time I laughed genuinely, like tears in my eyes or belly hurting due to laughter. When I am with my family and they're being silly all I can think about how many work tasks I have, money issues, how messy the house is and so on.
It's like I aged overnight to an 80 year old person who just doesn't find life fun or fun with people.
The worst part is I can see it affecting my relationships with people. No one wants to be friends with a serious person but faking it makes it worse.
Does anyone have any experience with this? Obviously I can't wait for life to get easier for me to become fun or willing to have fun but I don't know what to do.
Thanks in advance.