I (18f) had a friend (18m), we’ve known each other since middle school and I knew he had a crush on me then. But we just ended up really close friends through high school, we’d flirt a bit I will admit but nothing more we knew we were strictly friends. It was kind of an off and on friendship as well, me and him talked everyday freshman year then sophomore year we didn’t talk, and junior year we only started talking again second semester. That’s when everything starts. I knew he was a playboy, and talked to many girls so that was one of my turnoffs but I will admit he is attractive. The last couple days of school me and him would walk together and I brought up how I wanted to kiss someone, later that day he said why don’t we kiss. The next day, last day of school, we passed each other in the hall and it was just awkward. Nothing happened then. But that night we went on call and somehow the conversation got interesting.. we talked about what we were into and other things like that. We ended up having phone sex, but after we talked for hours. And I don’t know maybe he was just telling me what I wanted to hear, but he was talking about how he’s always found me attractive, how he was jealous of my ex boyfriend and that’s why he didn’t like my ex because my ex had me and he (my at the moment “fwb”?) didn’t. We talked and talked, but the next day I regretted it so bad, I had just broken up with my ex and I honestly felt like a hoe. Which to be fair it was bad, soo… anyways I told the guy hey we can’t do this again, it was a one time thing. but he insisted we do it again and I caved. However, every time we’d talk before or after the phone sex I’d act so cold towards him, not really acknowledging him. Not asking how his day was, not asking if he was okay even though he’d always ask me, and it led to him feeling some type of way which is fair. I mean of course I would listen if he started talking but I’d never ask. I did like the conversations though they brought me comfort. Anyways we ended it off because he said he did like me, he asked why I wouldn’t date him, he said he only wanted me that during his other relationships i’ve always been in the back of his mind and I told him it can’t and won’t happen, but I made him promise to not tell anyone and that it wouldn’t be weird, we’d still be friends. … he ended up telling people, and it was just awkward. he got a girlfriend, and obviously told her which is fair so she doesn’t like me, but he would still talk to me (we had a class together senior year) and honestly I felt bad because I know I wouldn’t want a girl doing this if I had a boyfriend. so I told him we couldn’t talk and I wouldn’t talk to him. and we haven’t, but I still think about him and I don’t know I think I miss our friendship. If there are any tarot readers lmk if he thinks about me too lol