Ever since I was a kid, school taught everyone to be quiet and be a behaved kid who does whatever they're told without distractions and I always followed this rule and I was praised for being like this. If I just stayed quiet and just did whatever the adults told me to do then I would be rewarded for being that way. I thought that this was what everyone should be like and the kids who talked a lot were the "bad" kids and they should be punished for not following the rules, but honestly I think this way of thinking negatively affected how I socialize with people cause of how awful I am when it comes to talking to people; making it hard to make friends and Ive been very lonely ever since I was a kid.
Since I was teached ans raised to always be quiet and to focus on my work, I never really had friends. I sometimes talked to people but I never hanged out woth them and I wouldn't call any of them my friend. I would always sit alone at the lunch table, seeing all the other kids talk to each other and wonder why im not like them even though I followed all the rules.
Society now loves the extroverted kid who talks a lot and knows how to get along with everyone while the quiet kid is looked down upon as being hard to communicate with even though this was just how I was raised and rewarded to be like. Im 20 now and I have got a bit better at socializing because of my coworkers at work, but I still have trouble talking with them, especially when it comes to talking to new people.