My friends are all incredible. They’re charismatic, they are talented, they are loved, they have good relationships with their families they have tons of friends. And I’m just envious of all of them.
It sucks to always feel jealous of my friends when they succeed, or when they show their skill at something, or when they can casually talk about partners or friends or family and the like. Because its so dirty and gross to feel envy at my friends for just living their lives and being happy.
I dont know, they’re just so incredible, and im just this less than average person. Im not smart like them, im not skilled like them, im not charasmatic like them, i dont have a work ethic like them, i dont have the determination of them, and I don’t have a personality that grabs attention and can make others smile.
I often feel like I dont deserve to be friends with them. I feel like they might realize how much worse I am than them and leave me. They have so much worth and I feel like my presence doesnt change anything in the grand scheme of things.
I just want to know what I can even do here. I just dont want to grow bitter with the people I love. But I always feel like an asshole for feeling jealous.