Hey guys I need some advice.
So due to my childhood from a really early age and some bad relationship experiences and as well as having ROCD (Relationship Obessive Compulsive Disorder).
i constantly have the worry and fear that the person im exclusively dating/seeing or in a relationship with is cheating on me or being unfaithful.
Ive been told to sort these issues before getting into another relationship, but I dont know how to sort them as being single these worries and issues dont cross my mind as im alone its only when I start seeing someone it kicks in everytime.
Ive been deep in thought about this and I feel if I was to know someone a significant amount of time let's say a couple to a few years as a friend. I feel I would trust them as i know what they're like as a perosn anyway and I know their principles and foundations and would feel confident/ have that security if I was to start seeing them I know what they would be like as I had that history prior to getting with them.
My issue is I have no friends and I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone and friendship groups like meet me or anything else arnt a thing. I moved here as an adult so I missed out on friend makinh at school college etc.
I feel my only option is to do online dating which I have done and have met women however because its very much chat meet up have sex start seeing them I feel that you just naturally jump in the deep end and have to give them your trust almost immediately and then if worries or whatever pops up then your a bad perosn because you shouldn't be with them because you dont trust them but I feel you should have to earn trust and not blindly give it away. Im stuck and I dont know what to do or how to overcome this.