So i make lots of disrespectfull (like racist etc.) jokes and at first they were like actually not that bad and funny jokes, but it got to the point where i told a joke about kids with cancer (im really ashamed of myself), and they just started being really bad jokes with no sense, i also noticed that some of my friends started acting weird around me which is pretty understandable. When i saw that i tried to not make these jokes but sometimes when i get too comfortable i just say something stupid automatically and make whole conversation weird. So now i just wanna become more of a normal person and not make people around me uncomfortable.