I’m starting to hate being around other people because I don’t know how to act around them. I just feel like such an awkward loser when I’m talking to other people. My intelligence literally drops. I become really stupid around others. If I just go to the store and buy something, I tremble and scramble for my card. My brain just doesn’t register logical decisions around others. Someone will give me instructions and my brain just doesn’t understand it. But when I’m alone, I think a lot and study and read. I know I’m not a stupid person but I literally get stupider around others. I also just don’t know how to casually talk around people. I’m trying to talk to this girl I like and literally all I can spit out is small talk like I’m conducting an interview. I just wish I was a normal person. I’m 21 years old. I’m not some nervous high school kid, I’m supposed to be confident and make her laugh but just don’t have that ability in me