I’m very lucky, I excel at school and don’t find it difficult, but socialization and not fitting in really takes a toll on you. Sometimes I wish I were like the other girls that couldn’t understand the simplest things but could immediately connect and get along with each other.
(Lil background) I go to a small school, like 200-300 kids in elementary and high school. This means my classes are usually in my grades class, and my grade only has one class of like 12 kids. I’m established here, but we got a new girl a few years back and I don’t think she really likes me. Whenever I talk or try to join a conversation, she usually doesn’t respond or when I generally talk to her, she doesn’t respond much. Her other friends, she responds quickly and vibrantly. I don’t think I did anything to her, I try to be nice and am generally quiet. I just am not heard by anyone, and it’s making me resentful towards the people around me. Nobody likes me that much to go out of their way to talk to me and to put it straightforward, I just want to be popular. I want friends and to exist without feeling like I’m putting up a shit ton of effort. Feeling ignored and out of place has made me begin to resent the people around me and it’s making me miserable at school. Like the second I get there, I mentally feel worse. Does anyone have any advice?
(How do I start making myself heard without trying to hard, and liking myself? When nobody else really likes you it’s easy to feel like you’re not worth it.)