Just totally confused by all of this that happened recently. I (33M) met an amazing woman (30F) on a dating app. We immediately clicked and talked quite a bit for a few days. We both have shared past trauma from failed marriages and we have kids. We clicked and connected on so many shared things. Our second day texting we sent the same exact thing as the other person at the same time like 5 times. I never had a connection with someone so immediately and it terrified me. We agreed to meet for a little date this past Sunday. No expectations, just eat dinner, play a board game, talk. I showed up with flowers and a wine she liked. She said no one ever really got her flowers before.
We played scrabble and a card game to get to know each other at the same time. She kissed me first unexpectantly and it was great. I cooked us dinner and we sat and talked. After we ate I held her hand and we had great eye contact and we talked. Before I left we kissed a few more times.
Before we met up she was having a decent panic attack out of anxiety, more than likely due to her previous bad relationships. I reassured her I just wanted to meet, get to know her, see how we both felt. No expectations of kissing or anything. So her kissing me first told me she was feeling it.
That night she texted she had a great time. She texted a little throughout the day while she was free from work. She had a therapy appointment she mentioned she was going to bring up her panic attack to her therapist. After her appointment I received a very long text about how she just wasn't ready for a relationship or a commitment. Its not anything I did, complimented how much she liked me and who I was but she was terrified to hurt me by getting in a relationship before she was ready.
This feels like classic avoidant answers. But it still hurts a little. As an anxious person it makes me feel like I truly did something wrong and was just being lied to about her enjoying the date, wanting a second date, etc. Am I crazy for feeling this way?
Edited: we both originally agreed to be FWB basically but I think the shock of the genuine connection as people scared us both into not wanting sex to ruin things.
Also she sent a text about her not wanting to do something to hurt me or my children as her ex husband got abusive with her and it really messed her kid up.