I am not sure where to post it. It is more a rant. I came from a background where money was tight and scarce. So, I made a goal to earn a lot of it.
I got a real job as soon as I became an adult. Then I got into IT. Now I am 38 this month and have met some friends and have been thinking about a lot about life.
I am making somewhere between 150K to 200K usd, but I am not in the US, and it's a lot. My life has been almost empty of any meaningful memory.
First, I was earning so I could travel, buy my dream car, and just do whatever i wanted, but I got stuck in corporate and did not really do anything in my 20s.
Then I got married, and priorities changed to my wife, then kids. Now, with two toddlers, all of my life are surrounded by them. I don't hate them, but I feel lost, and now I am 38 and dont really have that energy to do anything
I met some friends, and despite earning a lot less, they have traveled, enjoyed life, and are still spending on what they love.
I dont really know how to turn around my life. I don't know if I still have time to enjoy my life. I am just burned out. And I feel like I should have spent my 20s in a different direction.