My Mum died over two years ago of cancer. She was only 50.
I don't talk to any other family and my mum was my best friend. My relationship with my father is bad.
At first I thought it was just normal and my way of handling things, but I've realised I avoid thinking about my mother. I love her so much. I miss her so much. But whenever she crosses my mind I distract myself or make myself think of something else. At first I processed it with cryinf or talking and now time has passed I just don't at all. I don't even look at photos anymore or avoid it completely.
Has anyone else experienced this?