In 2024, I was part of a political organization at my university. It was my first year, and I only stayed for one semester because I didn’t feel comfortable, so I left. My coordinator did what he could to convince me to stay, but I still decided to leave.
However, I continued giving support classes to first-year students, remaining somewhat connected to the group from the outside. That’s where my role as a volunteer academic tutor, which appears on my CV, comes from. Even though I didn’t feel comfortable within the organization, I did feel good when teaching my classes. Many freshmen would tell me things like, “Thanks to you, I passed” or “Thank you so much for the help.” And all of that was possible because my group organized those classes. That’s why, even after leaving, I still told new students that if they had questions, they should go to them. I never hated the organization or the people there; I simply didn’t feel comfortable.
Recently, I saw some former classmates from the group, and they looked at me as if waiting to see whether I would say hello or not. But I didn’t. I feel embarrassed to talk to them, so I pretend they don’t exist, even though deep down I still appreciate them a little.
I'm being ungrateful