I (30M) have been struggling with awkwardness for a while now. Was fine until age 16 – 18 then i slowly found it difficult to associate and joke with people.
Overtime, its just become this painful frustrating buzzing in my chest. I feel wornout by social engagements.
Worried about accidentally sending over the wrong message via body language or speaking.
Exposure therapy is helpful but my nervous system really gets put out of whack.
So is this just a thing now that everyone copes with? Or do I just need to muscle through it even if its painful for all involved.