I've always tried to figure out why people would end up weirded out my me when I hadn't done anything socially weird or odd, but I recently had a girl put into words that it's because I look like my mind is always running and always observing. She said the way I talk, and the way I look around, makes it clear that I'm always thinking about something. She said it was like I chose my words instead of just saying whatever comes to mind. And just Something about me in general that is so terribly un-wordable gives that away. I had a few other people confirm this too after I asked a bit about it.

And I have a hard time understanding, why is it that this off-puts people? why is it off-putting in the first place? What does it even mean to look like I'm 'always thinking' or 'always observing'? It really confuses me, but it seems to be one of the reasons I have trouble getting people to stick around me.

They don't really mean in like .. an anxious over-thinking way either. Just like. I'm not really sure, honestly.


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