When I’m around women the same age as me, I get extremely nervous. Specifically stranger women. Like say I’m walking by a group of women same age as me at the park. I feel like I have to make sure I’m being absolutely perfect behavior. Eyes forward, don’t look at them, don’t turn my head, don’t make any facial expression or move any muscle in my face (especially my lips). I think it’s a reaction to the near constant times I was called a creep as a teenager due to my lack of social skills. I know that it’s not healthy, it’s disrespectful to women and misogynistic. But I’m terrified they’re gonna be creeped out or made uncomfortable by a man, especially one like me, perceiving them in any way.