M18, I started university almost a year ago and I have made 0 friends, only acquaintances who I've since neglected because I just struggle to talk to them so I just don't. I'm trying to put myself out there by joining societies/clubs but most of them don't appeal to me.
I know that during highschool/secondary school everyone is forced to socialise basically, this really helped me make new friends but it felt so natural then but not now. I don't think I fit in anywhere and I just feel even more isolated because I'm fat, so I stick out like a sore thumb and I just don't think I belong here, I feel stupid amongst the crowd. I didn't manage to make any friends through my dorms because I kinda lost the lottery and ended up in a 7-person apartment with all girls, so we hardly relate to each other.
I think I have something going for myself, I play saxophone and guitar and I am quite talkative with my secondary school friends but ever since university started I've just been too shy, I'm scared to talk to people because I feel like me just being fat will push people away.
I'm genuinely lost, I have a few good friends but I want to meet people at my university and it just sucks that I can't.
I'm 100% putting myself out there for next year in my classes, but what can I do this year? or even during the summer? I want to make friends, especially at university! I wanna join a band!