My major problem is that I have literally one close relationship and can make baseline conversation with family (in person) and old friends (if it’s texting)…
But the reason why my world is so small is because I feel like there is nothing to say to anyone ever. My mind is blank, I can’t think of anything to say to you, you also don’t have anything to say to me but somehow when I’m not there, conversation blooms. When I watch an interaction that’s in a relaxed setting it seems like people just know what to ask each other. I get it doesn’t have to be super deep. But the only thing I know about you is your name because we met 2 minutes ago, and I already forgot it. Literally what do I ask you?? And btw I’m scared and I feel like I smell and my facial expression is off
Im decent at masking especially at work. I’m much better at socializing when it’s transactional. Getting people what they need, answering their questions, having a clear purpose.
I don’t have a problem with masking. I’ve already accepted that socializing is going to feel like performing forever. But I’m just trying to become a pro so masking isn’t just exhausting, but it actually helps me fit in.
So I guess how are you guys actually acknowledging others and making small talk even if there’s really nothing to be said but you’re at a gathering with a bunch of people you don’t really know