I’m 23 years old and just finished my apprenticeship as a car mechanic. I just did it to have a degree, and i’m gonna take further education soon. But the truth is, i never really get along with my coworkers.
I’ve always had problems with colleagues being mean and concescending to me. As an example, today i couldn’t figure out how to use a new machine, and one of my colleague’s response was «Are you stupid?» and someone else said «yeah he’s an idiot»
I’m a sensitive guy who lacks self love/acceptence, so this kind of thing really stings – because i believe what they say, or I subconsciously think «fuck, they know i’m an idiot».
I really wanna work on myself and my thought patterns, and i wanna get better at controlling my emotions/thoughts when stuff like this happens. I want to not be so offended by it, and just laugh it off.
One question that keeps bugging me tho, is «who’s ‘fault’ is it?». Are they just dealing with shit themselfes and take it out on others? Or am i just sensitive to get offended by banter.
This has followed me my whole life so i’m leaning more towards the latter. I’ve been a victim to teasing for as long as i can remember, and when i ask about it, people just think it’s because it’s easy to feel safe around me.
Finally question: How should i deal with this mentally? If loving myself is the answer, i don’t know how. It seems like a difficult endless journey, and i don’t know where to start.
Anyways, thanks for reading through! I appreciate anyones thoughts and suggestions!