I have stopped socialising to such an extent that I have even stopped feeling even lonely. I sometimes wonder what is the need of people in lives when you can't even have a genuine connection and trust people. I understand it's fun to talk but without having any meaningful connections, even fun talks and jokes seems so superficial. I kinda wonder, why do I even need friends or marry in life or even have a family? There is only person I trust blindly and guess what, that's me. I see outside that others are so happy with friends. I just don't understand how one can be so happy when there is nothing meaningful. Well, i don't even trust my own parents because of some past trauma. I don't know if I am becoming alien to the world. I don't understand how will I continue my life till I go off by being such a mess. Anybody can DM if you wanna talk about it casually.