Anyone else hit 30 and feel like they’re doing “okay” on paper but still behind?

I’m 30. I have savings, I live at home currently, I do creative work/gigs, and I’m trying to build a self-employed life.

From the outside I’m probably doing okay. But internally I constantly feel behind—career, relationships, body, social life, purpose.

I’ll have productive days… then disappear into YouTube, porn, avoidance, random spending, overthinking.

Did anyone here break out of that cycle in their 30s? What actually changed things?