So me and my boyfriend were having talking last night, and I asked him what did he see in me? Why did he choose me? Because deep down, I know from myself that I’m not “all that,” and then he told me to not be mad on what he’s gonna say, so this made me a lot nervous but i assured him that i would be totally fine with it. So he told me that he finds a lot of prettier girls than me, and that, it really confused him on why he chose to pursue me over them. He even said that i’m not attractive and pretty, and that I’m only “cute” and that’s it. This really hurt, but I know that it shouldn’t be because he’s just being honest. But it made a lot of sense why his eyes always wander whenever there’s an attractive girl passing by us even when he’s with me. Sometimes, he even smiles at gazes at them, he even tells it out loud to me how he finds that certain girl so beautiful. And then, there are times where jokes about finding another girl that he’ll want more and there was also a time when I asked him how was his day, he answered that he’s with some “hot chicks.” And then, he sent me a screenshot of his instagram feed full of girls with almost no clothes on. This really made me cry and insecure about my face, about my body, about everything. I really really love him, but I think it’s just a matter of when that he’ll abandon or replace me for someone better. I don’t want him to know that I’m hurting because I’m scared that he’ll find me insecure. But all of these really ruined my peace. Lately, I have been overthinking, crying, having trouble with sleep, have no motivation to do everything even getting out of bed, I’ve been comparing myself to other girls and how I will never be enough for him. That I will not be beautiful or hot enough for him, and that he will always yearn for someone better especially if given an opportunity. I feel so stuck, and my heart really feels heavy. I cannot focus on the moment as my thoughts are eating me up. I don’t know how I can ever move on from this. Every time I wake up, I feel so scared that I will overthink again and be stuck with my insecurities and thoughts for the whole day. I don’t know what to do anymore and on how I could accept this. What should I do? and how can I move on from this? How can I bring my peace of mind back? I’m sorry for the long post. My heart and mind just feels really, really heavy. And for my last question, has any of you experienced this with your partner? If yes, how did ya’ll handled it?