So I read through all the comments I got and it’s safe to say I need therapy. I’ve booked weekly therapy sessions for myself and hope they help.
Last night I talked with my boyfriend and it told him I had this dream about him and our friend. He stayed quiet as I spoke about everything. I didn’t blame him for my feelings or insecurities (not that they are his fault).
He didn’t say a word… just looked at me and then got up, picked his bag up and left. I called him after an hour but he didn’t pick up. I felt horrible just horrible and I texted him so many times just asking where he is and apologising. I knocked on his door but there was. O answer. We don’t live together but we live in the same student accommodation block.
I saw him this morning and he was with our friend (22F) outside having a cigarette. I made eye contact with our friend from the window and she didn’t smile at me. I started spiralling wondering if my boyfriend told her about my dream or if she sees me in a different light.
I went outside to them to say hi but also try and talk with my boyfriend. I approached them and said hi and they both said hi back. I asked my boyfriend how he slept and whether he had breakfast. He gave me a very minimal response which is nothing like what he’s usually like. And then our friend interrupted and said “were you always this insecure?”…
I completely froze. She was looking at me as if she was judging me but also with disgust and I’ve never wanted to disappear so much in my life. I looked at my boyfriend and he just had a blank stare on his face and continued smoking.
I went back into my dorm and cried. I’ve never had this kind of interaction with anyone before and I didn’t expect my best friend to say such a thing in that tone .original post
Edit: sorry forgot to add but, what can I do now? Should I give him some space or should I speak in private with my friend?