Im 22F my Bf is 24M we're both white. We live in South Dakota. We met on tinder and been together 4 years with a 1 year old baby girl.
We always been on & off for 3 years because he had some porn issues. Started out he watched a lot of black transgenders and gay videos, than it turned into his fyp on YouTube shorts being all sexy black girl videos (which is weird be I'm a "thick" white girl so he could of easily asked me to dance for him), he stops and months later watches it again. During my pregnancy he stopped, he tells me he doesn't want that stuff and just wants me.
Our relationship got beautiful again than a month before my due date I found his Facebook got deleted and asked him why…saw a bunch of black girl thirst page he clicked on. Obviously took him back bc I was a month away from birth. Fast forward a year later, I cuss him out everyday for it, we argue, he won't leave me. He says he doesn't even find black women attractive anymore because when he sees it he's reminded of how much he let it ruin his life & family. He claims he doesn't like it at all and doesn't find them sexy anymore.
(He works hard everyday, he's a super present father, always helping, and pays all our bills) he just never eats me out lol. For background I'm his first and only woman he's slept with…he let a guy blow him but only for a few seconds
My question is do I trust him this time? Or do I runaway this time because he's lying… it's been 3 years of betrayal vs 1 loyal one…. I'm stuck
Im a TikTok user not Reddit so if I used this confusingly mb
Yes it did make me a little insecure bc I’ve always been that kind of white girl back in SD who’s homegirls are all black, kickin it, partying at USD and now I can’t even see my friends bc I’m like..I don’t want my man thinking you’re cute…. It’s hard lol