I have pretty bad social anxiety and have been an introvert for the longest time. I find myself being super awkward with strangers and making small talk is hard. I don’t know how to talk normally. Im super awkward until I get to know someone and then I open up and have deeper conversations, obviously I can’t do this with strangers or like doctors or whoever you see that you’re not acquainted with. People have said “you just have to practice”, lately I have tried to force myself to try and small talk but I get so awkward. Even at the doctors when I have a question I panic and don’t know how to word my question right and then I bring it up to my mom or someone and they’ll be like “well why didn’t you ask blah blah blah” and I’m like “I TRIED” it’s like I forget how to function while talking to people. I don’t know. Any advice or if you have book/podcast/media suggestions I’ll take that too. Another thing, I’m jealous of people who can just walk up to anybody and just start talking and even more jealous of people who can respond to that person like they know them.