I’m scared to make friends I feel really hurt and alone. People wanna be friends with me for their own selfish reasons. Not cause I can’t make any but it’s either they are too busy with their boyfriend, use me as emotional dependence and when I distance myself it’s like I did something wrong when they are being extremely self centered about it. I think I just feel angry/resentment for how much I’d let them take the time I had away from me. When I do take time for myself it’s almost taken offensively or I have to constantly update them what’s up.
I’m spending my birthday alone I’ll be turning 20 in 2 weeks. I’m just sad I won’t even have friends . It’s embarrassing