The constant competition with self and other. Never knowing if other men are your friends or secretly envious, jealous, hate you. Women are generally disinterested, guarded or generally so sick of men that they have very little time and energy for you. As I get into my mid 30’s it’s just….quiet. Fewer phone calls, fewer meet ups, fewer every thing except bills and a deepening sense of alienation from my self and others. This life is wild. I’m tired of sugar coating it. This isn’t how I feel every single day, but it’s a major part of the vibe. Maybe I did this to my self. Either way feels like every thing is a Ponzi scheme. I guess the patriarchy doesn’t just sour up women’s lives after all. It’s hard being a man out here.
Edit: thanks for the different flavors of support every one. Some struck a nerve in a good way while others struck me as pompous, arrogant and more or less dismissive in that typical almost emotionally violent male way which is ironic because of the content of my post. What I’ve gathered is that a man who is struggling has no business being on Reddit. So, peace.