We had a very messy breakup, being young teenagers on the internet and all that. I've tried reaching out before but always make a fool of myself because deep down, I still have feelings for her, even now.
The only form of contact we have now is playing tag on LinkedIn, as it will notify you of who looks at your bio. I don't really know how to feel about it because it's been so long since the relationship. I want to keep chugging along in life, but this is a daily reminder that someone I once knew very well is still thinking about me.
I guess it's a blessing to know that they're keeping me in their thoughts, but I don't really know how to process it.
I never dated since highschool, because I just don't like the process, and romance is hard for me. I've had a sexual encounter, thinking it would get me over her, but it didn't.
Do I reach out? Her birthday should be coming up, so I guess that would be an opportune time to just say "happy birthday".
I don't know what I'm expecting from posting this, but I guess a rant into the void will be fine.