My partner (21M) and I (21F) have been together for 2 years now. I love him so much and we plan on getting married and having a real future together.
There is only one issue that he doesn’t even really know about. He turns me on yes but it takes ages for me to cum or even get horny and wet. I love him so much and i want to have amazing sex with him and i do but it’s just not incredible you know?
Recently i started reading fanfiction again and i hate to admit it but it gets me off way more than he does. I want him to do some of the things that the fanfictions i’ve read do but i guess im unsure of how to go about it? I’ve spoke to him via dirty talk about what i want him to do to me and he will happily oblige to make me happy and for his own enjoyment but idk how to be like no i want this, etc.
I’m describing this really badly. I’m not the best at communicating my feelings. But i get off faster and alot more when i do it myself (alone). Why is this? i love him so much and he does make me feel good and he is great.
I know fanfiction is very far from reality but i feel like a lot of things can cross over. I don’t know. Maybe i prefer fantasy sex than real sex. I also always feel weird and dirty after i cum during sex is that normal?
Sorry there is a lot of unpack here haha please don’t hate on me i really want to enjoy the sex we have more. (for reference i am very attracted to him)