Ok this is pretty embarrassing but I am a grown ass 39 year old man with a family and I am scared of the dark. When I was a boy I used to have night terrors, super strong visual and auditory hallucinations that scared me to shit. As I grown up, I still have them. My wife has no idea, never spoke about this with her, but when I am alone I sleep with the light on, and I am still terrified of sleeping with the light off. Sometimes she goes to sleep before me and I stay awake for hours being alert and can’t shut my eyes. Pretty much 2x per week I wake up startled and screaming just because she went to the toilet and made a sound or something. I scream while I sleep fairly often too (yes I am a very fun sleep companion and you can add snoring and apnea to the mix).
Any way to figure out what’s going on? Not sure how to approach it and I thought it would be gone by itself by now.