I've had basically no social life for about 2 years now and even though I've got like 4 weeks of school left I'd like to try and fix it. I don't talk to anyone outside of school, I spend breaks and lunches alone and only really talk to people if I happen to be at their table in classes. I used to be a part of a friend group and I used to have best friends but since like second year of highschool things are different. I noticed I wasn't really getting invited to stuff anymore and if I wanted to go I had to ask to go and just felt like I didn't really have a place in conversations. So I gradually just stopped trying cuz I felt like I wasn't getting back what I put in. Nowadays I don't really do anything with other people, I was in bands and stuff before but even then I just didn't feel wanted or needed and stopped going. That's what I really want tbh, to feel wanted. I want people to notice and care when I'm not there and to be interested in me. The only person in my life like that rn is probably my mum which I feel like doesn't count. For the past like 8 months I've been using the reasoning that I'm almost done with school to just not try but is there any merit to that way of thinking? How can I make meaningful friendships in or out of school (preferably that don't need school to exist) that will make my life feel like it matters cuz rn it just doesn't. I feel weightless and invisible. The only people that I matter to are my family. I want to matter to other people. Sorry if post is badly structured or anything I just wanted to get my thoughts out, maybe I'll figure it out. Thanks for reading.