I grew up being viewed as a nerd, which I was tbh, and that has lead to me not being the most liked person. Being liked by a few groups resulted in me not forming valuable social skills. I’m not the best person to do jokes. Despite nailing some jokes here and there, I really struggle with delivering a fun conversation with someone who’s especially new to me. Conversations get these awkward silences quite quickly, and it’s not that I just do bad jokes (which sometimes happens but not a lot since I try to avoid doing jokes), it’s more that I just don’t how to maintain an interesting conversation for a good while. This doesn’t at all mean I’m an introvert. Meeting new people is on of my favorite experiences that I always seek because I in fact do like socializing and it makes me feel refreshed especially after a long period of routine in my life. The thing is that sometimes I just don’t know how to feel liked by others around me ig. One thing I noticed is that I’m okay vibing with people that are more on the chill, kind, easygoing, and respectful side of the spectrum, while I struggle much more with the cool,popular (and even possibly bully-ish) side of the spectrum. My problems are present with a majority of people. I don’t know how to respond, carry a conversation in an interesting manner, or be funny, and all of these don’t just appear with the cooler type of people as the are always present, but with kinder people I have a much easier time and sometimes, although very rare, they actually diminish to tolerable levels. With meaner people the previously mentioned qualities just rise dramatically. In a few months I’ll get to move to a new city for uni and I hope this could be my chance to a fresh start. I just want to be funnier, more likable, quicker and intuitive responder.