This week some tourist asked me the direction for the metro, without thinking i somehow confidently pointed at the entrance of a book shop.
When i went to order a drink in Paris (im french born in france), I stuttered so much that the guy thought i was english so i just finished ordering in english.
I gave some charity scammer all my coins cuz i couldn't say no (like fucking 15 euros💔).
I fell several times in the street, somehow.
A girl complimented me in the street so I said thank you, and instead of walking away like any human i just stared at her for way too long expecting something to happen.
I went to some kebab, the tables were all empty and completely available, and i asked way too politely "may I get a table for 2", the guy just stared at me and didn't answer BECAUSE WHY WOULD I EVEN ASK
I can never be chill
How do u even exist
I've got social anxiety + im homescooled so i never really experience life out of my room, I know it's by making mistakes that you learn how to behave normally, but you usually make these mistakes as a kid
Now i just gotta learn everything at an age where im already supposed to know how to exist, which makes my anxiety so much worse to deal with cuz i know im objectively acting weird IT'S NOT JUST IN MY HEAD AND IT MAKES IT SOOO BAD
Anyways I know u guys cant do anything about this but I need to write it down 😀