I always had ego and dropped out of college at 18 and its been 4 + years and I regret it since. I remember how I went to college at 17 , dropped out all my friends graduated and moved forward and I dont. My life lacks social life. I do meet someone at rare moments and Ik I failed bcz I was stuck in competitive exams , toxic parents etc etc. in my country.
I am 22 and honestly I can't even talk to like 18-19 yr college peeps coz I feel jealous I feel old , I feel fucking lost. And I dont want to deny but I did got into sexting and other sexual stuff on here since I was 18 to get rid of isolation. It did help me for time being. You can look in my profile , yeah that's me.
I dont want to hide my addictions , the urges I had , this is me this is my full story. And everything I am doing fine more than enough its just I can't get enough friends.
It all started bcz of embarassment of being a dropout , I live in 3rd world country and dropping out is seen very badly , in my industry people graduate at 20-21 and now they are in good jobs.
I did one job and I can't work coz I have some exams and medical issues I need to give next month but I feel I am delaying it.
I wish someone had told me , someone I felt comfortable for guiding me at 18 when I was about to dropout.