Hey y'all. I'll be brief. I'm 21 and have been completely isolated for 2 years (lots of unfortunate events.) I've only ever talked to my immediate family in that time and haven't had a conversation longer than 10 minutes with anyone. My heart wants to change, but I keep finding ways to demotivate myself. Or I'll meet someone nice and end up ghosting because I feel, unironically, like a virus. Forget even making friends, how do you even find the will to try in the first place when you feel like an alien wearing human flesh?