I have been with my boyfriend for almost a year now (April of 2025) but have recently been having strong feelings about leaving. We moved into an apartment in October of last year and have since been alright together until lately. I have been having semi frequent days where everything is overwhelming and makes me mad and we spoke about this. It was about a week ago that we talked about it, but I've been thinking about it every day since. He told me that I should just move out and back into my parents home since I'm always so upset.
I don't know why but it stuck with me really hard, I think most of the conversation was out of anger but I feel like he meant it. Living with him is alright for the most part but he constantly orders food from doordash or makes me drive to get us fast food after work (we only have one car atm) and then leaves any wrappers or dishes in the floor of our room. I feel unhappy with the way we live because our apartment is always messy, I was out of a job for a few months and was always cleaning up the apartment while he was at work but now even though we both work I am still the one doing everything.
I think there's a large block in our relationship right now, I'm too scared of him getting upset to try and tell him that I feel like breaking up and moving out would help me. I am perfectly fine still being friends and talking afterwards, but I just don't want to leave him alone if I move out. Most of the things in our apartment are mine, the only things that are his are his clothes, desk, desk chair, and computer. Everything else is mine. Furniture, bed, kitchen appliances, washer and dryer, etc. and I just can't bring myself to move out and leave him with nothing because he would have nowhere to go either.
I want to try and tell him that I would like to wait a few months and see if the feelings of wanting to leave are still there, out lease ends in october so that would give him some time to find another place to live. Is there a better way of dealing with this situation?