I'll be honest with myself its my fault i isolated so early during high school because people are weird and werent my friend… I was chasing peace which i shouldnt have. Now that im older and in college…. I'm trying my best to be around people and socialize… I have no issues sparking and keeping conversation but i feel as though people already solidifide their friendships and dont really want to pursue me in any form besides communication as aquantiances. I also feel pitied because those who I have conversed with just wave at me, then give me a look that seems ungeniune and it feels like they know im lonely but i never act or look upset when i make eye contact with them. I still feel like the same person from middle school where the popular pretty girl doesnt want me sitting by her and it feels like college is the same way. I'm just really confused Ive been told a myraid of times i have a personality and im a funny person but no one seems to like me enough to be my friend in college.. even going to sorority meet ups they want you to be fanned out when they are a typical girl like me and i cant join because they have to like you in order to join and they never post anything to get to know them as a person…. I just think my life has been nothing but sadness and regret and I hate everything about being in my body and just being here makes me suffer.