I want friends so bad. I don’t have any trouble making “friends” but I’ve never had a friend who would consider me important. They’re always too busy for me but not anyone else. And I always hear “just get better friends ditch toxic people” but WHERE? These better friends don’t exist. I’m tired of hoping and fantasizing about a response to my message, but I’ve never gotten anything better. I’ve never experienced a real friendship. I want friends who will spend time with me, who invite me to do stuff with them. I’m tired of friends who feel like a slot machine of whether or not I will get any attention. It’s so tiring pouring so much love and attention only for one word responses to be the best I get, if I even get anything. The worst part is I k know it’s just me. I see the love they pour out to other friends.