I'm going to keep this succinct, I'm looking for insight from women who were once scared or uninterested in masturbating for your partner to see who have since come around to it. Why did you initially not want to or not have interest and what if anything changed your mind?
My wife and I have an amazing sex life and are very open, but she just normally refuses this request with a bunch of different reasons. Either she likes sex better or that it doesnt feel as good without me. I've tried to explain my interest in watching to no avail, but I never push too hard. For years now she has been very coy about this and I've never been able to convince her or pin down why. I wonder if this is one thing shes still shy about somehow or if she truly just sees no reason to participate in what she considers a lesser form of pleasure just for me.