I’ll make this quick I 36-year-old male was cheated on by my partner of six years 35-year-old female. I am ashamed to admit that I have been physically violent with her on more than one occasion and during all three of her pregnancies. She has called the police on me once but after CPS got involved has never done so again she cheated on me two years ago when I was on a work trip she did not have sex, but there was oral sex. I didn’t want details that she gave me that one. We got into an argument, and I threw it into her face that she cheated on me because she was implying that I was cheating. We have three kids together and we’re not speaking right now. She has suggested counseling, but I’m just not open to it unless she pays and even then I just don’t want to do it. Can I ever forgive her? I just move forward. I think I could let it go, but I expected her attitude towards me to change when I forgave her, but she is still very disrespectful towards me.