For my whole life I've always seemed off to people and crap at socialising. It's like everyone can tell I'm different and I hate it. I don't know what's wrong with me as I lacked criteria for autism (zero symptoms other than bad at socialising). I'm 16 and almost at the end of school and I've suffered there because I'm not like 99% of people. I don't look or act like 16 and don't even have any conditions and Ive lost my will to be nice now. I can go about my day with some happiness but I go back to remembering how I'm a pain for others. I don't think this will change and can't see a point of continuing after summer, I think about skipping school because the final exams wouldnt mean anything. How can I just be normal?