I feel like life hit me hard to realize that I did not make enough friends when growing up. I've been playing video games from age of 18 to 26 which pushed me to be isolated. I decided to move out of country and pursue Master's and did get a good job.
I just realized that my friends are getting married to someone they know, which I'm happy for. I started cutting off screen time, which made me realize that I do not have friends to call or rely on when I need help. I just feel like losing myself around everyone. I’m done running after people and never getting the effort back. I’m soon to be in my thirties and it just feels like everyone is too busy to hang out anymore and just minding their own business.
But now just feel like I should head back to my home country and stay with parents to boost my social skills. I've been wanting to join a dance class once I go back in the hopes of meeting someone and widen my social circle.