For almost 24 years of my life I've never had a boyfriend. When I was younger it was the "you're way too young to think about boys" mindset my parents made sure to give me. I had a few secret "online boyfriends" if you can even call it a relationship, because back then it seemed big and fancy, but now I think of it as a little pathetic lol
When I got older it was "you're old enough to have a boyfriend, but boys are bad because they're gonna make you a single teen mom". So at 20 I gave dating apps a try and oh boy was I disappointed. Every guy I met there wanted sex. Maybe one of them didn't, but we went out twice and a week later he had a girlfriend (and it wasn't me)
I might not be 2007 Megan Fox, but I gotta be someone's type, right? And my expectations towards a potential partner aren't high. Taller than me in heels (which isn't hard as I'm 5'3/160cm without heels), loyal, kind, preferably left-leaning (or if he happens to be right-leaning, doesn't force his beliefs onto me).
I don't know how other girls find boyfriends and I don't. It's definitely not the whole "to love somebody you need to love yourself" thing. I love myself, I love my life, but it would be nice to finally have someone to love romantically.
Doesn't help that my aunts and uncles keep asking if I have someone. On top of that, ever since my little cousins were born a few years ago, and my mom happens to be their favorite aunt, I keep hearing about how I should *finally* make her a grandma (she's 50 mind you, if I had a baby now she'd retire when the kid is a teenager, and she knows I am so terrified of pregnancy I might never have a child). And, yknow, to plan having a child, firstly I'd like to have someone to make that child with