This is honestly so embarrassing and I feel like I can’t go to my friends or family without feeling more embarrassed. My husband (30M) and I (26F) met about six years ago. We hooked up for the first time about a month after meeting. As we continued to hang out and learn more about each other, we talked about sex and our preferences, likes and dislikes. I’m open to A LOT and I let him know this. I also let him know that I am open to the things I haven’t tried yet. I let him know specifically that I loooove to receive oral from a partner. He said that he hadn’t done it before and that he wanted his wife to be the only person he did that to. I understood that because I figured people wait to have sex until they’re married so maybe it’s the same idea. I let him know that I wouldn’t want to be with someone long term who doesn’t give oral. And I hope that’s not selfish but I know myself and my body. I know what will satisfy me. So, given what he told me, I was okay with waiting because I loved him. We talked about oral sex A LOT before we got married and he loves receiving it so I figured he’d understand where I am coming from.
Well, we got married in April 2024. I wasn’t waiting for him to marry me solely so that I could receive oral. BUT, among marrying my best friend, I was excited because it had been YEARS since I experienced it and I remembered what he had told me, which was that he was waiting for his wife to try it out.
For the first few months after us getting married, I noticed that he hadn’t really tried to bring it up or incorporate it. So, I had a conversation with him about it. I asked him how he still felt about giving oral and he said that it’s not something that would come naturally to him so he just hadn’t tried. And again, I understood. I asked if there was anything I could do to help initiate and incorporate it into our sex life because I REALLY like it. He said he would try.
Well… here we are in 2026 and he STILL hasn’t done it. I’ve had multiple conversations with him at this point and he says the same thing: that he has never done it and it just doesn’t come natural to him. Several of the conversations include me asking him if there’s something I’m doing wrong or something off putting about me that makes me so hesitant. He says no. I am very good about going to the doctor and making sure I’m healthy. I drink a lot of water and eat healthy. I workout a lot. I’ve done the smell/taste test to make sure. I’ve tried to change my clothes and hair and put on lingerie.. ANYTHING that might get him in the mood. I even told him that I don’t want to continue to give oral and not receive it because after a while, it just made me feel like I was only servicing him and my pleasure was on the back burner.
I’m really lost on what to do. We’ve been together for a while so part of me is telling myself to get over it. Of course I could buy a toy and I have! But there’s nothing that beats your partner satisfying you. Now, I feel like I’m missing out on something that I didn’t want to give up. It’s also shot down my confidence a lot. I never really dealt with a person prior to knowing him who wasn’t absolutely feral over the idea of giving me oral. But him ignoring my request makes me feel like he simply doesn’t want to do that with me.
It would be clear to me if he just outright said he doesn’t want to because his actions have shown that. But that’s not what he’s saying. I feel like I’ve had every conversation there is to have and I’ve done everything I can do. I love him and he is my best friend. But I feel like my pleasure always comes second. Is there anything else I can do to motivate him? Or is he simply just not interested?