I (30F) have been with my partner matt(32M)) for going on 2 years.(fake names are being used). There is history between, we took each others virginities extremely young ( the summer we were 13 going on 14) at the end of the summer my family ended up moving away and we lost touch. My next partner I was with for 12 years and we have a child together. The relationship turned abusive and me and our child returned to our home state. Me and matt rekindled almost immediately after I moved back to my home town. Things moved incredible fast and a year in matt and I are a blended family with both of our children sometimes me and my son will stay with our aunt if I feel we are smothering him b/c its currently a 2 bedroom apartment w/ 2 adults, a preteen, a toddler and 2 large dogs. We just signed our new lease this week and move the end of next week. We have plans to elope when we go to Vegas next month. The last 2 years have been literally amazing, its everything I prayed for in a person just in his caring nature, him being so understandable and making me feel safe after a lifetime of trauma. So now the issue, in dec. I was feeling sick and took a pregnancy test. It was positive. Which isn't surprising because my body is super sensitive and I can't use any kind of condom without getting a really bad yeast infection or BV. So Im used to getting tested regularly just to be safe. It was one very drunk night and we slipped up. We both agreed right now is not the right time so we decided to terminate. So that's how I started my new year off, having the procedure done on the 4th of January. I had a blood test taken and everything came back clean. I had my follow up appt on Feb 9th and the doctor called me 1 hour ago saying I have a sti and cervical infection I know for a fact that I have not been with anybody beside him this entire relationship. I also looked up what causes cervical infections and it's mainly STis even though sometimes the abortion process can cause infections. I called Matt to give him a chance to be honest and just mentioned the cervical infection, and asked if he had any idea how I’d get it. immediately he said it “probably a bad side effect from the abortion pills” I want to bring this conversation back up, however I'm literally shaking thinking about it because of my past relationship whenever my previous relationship didn't want to talk or be held accountable the conversation would turn to threats& violence. I'm honestly scared because me and matt have never gotten into a major argument or have even raised our voices to each other.
Now the reason behind my insecurity is we stopped having sex (basically the whole month of January b/c of the abortion) he disappeared 2 nights on of dec 29th his birthday and Jan 16/17. On dec 29th his friends threw him a party and it was no girlfriends allowed and he said everybody got drunk and fell asleep at the Airbnb. On the 16th he randomly told me he was going to drop us off at my aunts for the night and he did but it was different than any other time. He went radio silent, normally he'd text me immediately, send me pics and ig videos the whole night until we ended the night on FaceTime. When he did pick me up he was super affectionate and the one time we were passionate before my follow appt he asked could we start over and at the moment I thought it was just sex talk, as the moment was very intimate. However it did stick with me and I wanted to ask what he meant* but I didn't want to disturb the peace. I'm so scared to bring the conversation up when I get home but I have to, as horrible as it sounds I just want to know the truth, I don't even know if I would leave him.