My boyfriend and I are on and off again for about 10yrs now due to distance and other circumstances. We love each other and are at the stage of our current relationship where we are focused on getting engaged and married but a lot has happened in my personal life this last year that has gotten in the way of that and I am not feeling great about myself. Finances are non existent and depression is weighing on me heavy. He seems to be flourishing and I feel like we are on two different pages in life right now. I know we love each other and enjoy our time together but I keep having thoughts of just wanting to call it quits until I feel better, but part of me knows that thats not acceptable or reasonable. I don’t feel like I have much to talk about with him anymore besides the bs going on in my life. I have tried to remain positive and hopeful over this last 8 months after losing my job, but I have started to understand that things might not get better for a long time. I feel like a burden because he wants to help me but has no way to do so and it leaves things awkward. Is it unreasonable for me to want to leave this relationship due to the shame that I am feeling?