it's a difficult subject for me because I've struggled with depression – something I've tried to see multiple therapists for several years and yet nothing has worked.
Coupled with never having a girlfriend or date by being in my 30s, it adds to the mental health deterioration, fuelling the depression at being lonely and compounding the feelings of loneliness. It feels like a mental spiral – depression, anxiety, the hopelessness in no improvement in my health despite trying several things added to the physical needs of connection but knowing it will never happen.
It is terrible and I just feel all is lost.